Focus on the Future

Are you feeling burdened and troubled by something you can’t pinpoint what is it? Maybe you are just like me 6 years ago when I don’t know my purpose in life and I feel like I am just a puppet in this world, I eat, work and sleep, nothing interesting. Until one day I happen to come across a quotation that somehow changed my perspective in life, I decided to detach myself and did some thorough evaluation from my feelings, principles, and choices in life. It did help me tremendously when I found out the reason why I have those unexplained moods and emotions. I sat long enough with my demons and faced them as to why they exist.

Here are some things I finally uncovered;

1. Ill Tempered / Short Tempered: I realized that it’s a coverup of my grief. I am still grieving inside and I masked it as grumpy because I do not want to show that I am grieving.

2. I am on Grief: Because I am still living in the past and I have not accepted the things that I don’t have control of.

3. I have not Accepted those things: Because I am still denying that only IF I did something different maybe I have a different life now, a life I thought would be.

I totally forgot to enjoy life, I was a slave of my own emotions, my demons stayed with me because I did not acknowledge their presence. I don’t have any idea how badly I treated myself and that led me to live in what IF’s. I forgot that my focus should be on the things that I can change because I am very busy living in the past which I can do nothing of.

With all these realizations I managed to beat depression and I started loving myself in which procreate an inner peace in me. My demons went away because I gave them love but sometimes they visit me and reminds me of their existence. I shifted my focus to the betterment of myself for a better future. I geared my energy to help those in need and contribute to a better home (Earth). I have forgiven people who were not even sorry for what they did because I choose to move on. I didn’t show up on all invitation to conflicts because I focus on peace rather than being right. Now, my life feels way better and way at peace than before since the day I decided to let go of my past and focus on my future.

You who are reading this, I hope you for a better you. Self-love is never being selfish at all, You have to love yourself first before you can love another. You cannot pour from an empty cup.

“We do not get to choose how we start out in life. We do not get to choose the day we are born or the family we are born into, what we are named at birth, what country we are born in, and we do not get to choose our ancestry. All these things are predetermined by a higher power. By the time you are old enough to start making decisions for yourself, a lot of things in your life are already in place. It’s important, therefore, that you focus on the future, the only thing that you can change.”
― Idowu Koyenikan

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